I learned a lot in 2018 but the thing that stands out the most is learning to let go. I always want to do it all, myself, down to every detail. I want to have control + I think I’m the only person who can do it “right.” This year though, I was forced to let go a lot.
There were a lot of projects this year that didn’t turn out quite as I had planned. I had big plans but slowly realized those were not going to happen. It’s a hard pill to swallow when a project becomes out of your control or turns out completely different than you planned, and you feel like it may convolute your brand or was just a waste of precious time. But I had to learn to let it go.
I was forced to let go even more because I just physically couldn’t do everything I wanted being pregnant. I was stubborn + probably still did more than I should- right up to our one year anniversary event at the Amsden which I refused to miss even at 41 weeks pregnant (+ my water broke the next morning at 4 am).
Once John Woodford arrived, my life changed forever. I no longer have complete control over my schedule + I have had to just let it go. While I love him more than I can put into words + I love being a mom, I also love + miss my work and feel like I’m being left behind some days (then feel guilty about feeling that way).
I’m still learning how to adjust + I definitely still have moments where I feel the pressure to do it all myself, but thankfully I have an amazing support system that I’m learning to lean on more + more. I hired an assistant who is amazing + saved my sanity the last few months, my employees stepped up + took care of things without me even asking, + my parents and sister have jumped in not only to help with the baby but also anything + everything at the Amsden. And I could not even put into words how helpful, sweet, + supportive my husband has been throughout this entire pregnancy + first month of parenthood. So I’m ready for 2019 + to continue tackling my ever growing list of ideas, goals, + dreams, but just with a little more help than usual this year 💕 and I think I’ll be surprised at how much more I’ll accomplish